Friday, August 21, 2009
Cody does not want to hear from me ever again because I am selfish, rude, and an all around bad friend. I hate myself and I want to not be here anymore.
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Thursday, August 06, 2009
She walks down what seems to be the never ending hall way, holding her books for dear life against her chest as if she was preparing for them to just fall at any moment. She walked with no confidence; she gave her feet the death stare as she walked not acknowledging anything around. But, anyone can see that she was in deep thought about something well, that is if anyone had cared to look. As she walked the hallway aimlessly she thought, "Why me?!?!." She kept asking herself why me, why did I have to fall so madly in-love with my best friend. She kept recalling memories of them together, trying to figure out when she actually fell for him so deeply.
As she is wondering the halls paying no attention to the loud, unjust world around her, she bumps into him. She looks up slowly hoping that she did not just bump into her English teacher because at that time that is were she was suppose to be. But, no it was him the guy that has been making her thoughts run in circles. In just an instant her palms started to sweat, she became flustered, and her heart was racing ten times faster than it normally did. She seemed to be at a lose of words for that brief moment. Taylor broke broke the silence "Ha, Bella shouldn't you be in English class or are you skipping again?" Bella just gave a friendly punch in the shoulder and said "shut up dork, so what if I skip English you're suppose to be in art." He gave her that sweet smile and said "I have a hall pass Miss. Bella."
Continue later [:
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Saturday, July 25, 2009
How could he be so damn amazing...
I wish I had a boyfriend or just a guy that liked me too boost my self esteem. I miss my friends & high school. I feel incomplete with high school and seeing my friends almost everyday. Being out of high school is testing every friendship I have. It sucks seeing which friends care enough to make an effort to hangout and which ones don't. I still need a job and my license. I feel so low in my life right now.
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Tuesday, July 07, 2009
"The man accused of stabbing two people Sunday night at the Trumbull County Fair is being held on $50,000 bond.
Twenty-five
year old Jeremy Feidler pleaded not guilty to assault charges Monday
morning. He turned himself in at the Trumbull County Sheriff's booth
after realizing he was being followed by possible witnesses.
Prosecutors feel an argument led up the stabbing."
Yeah, they are talking about my ex-boyfriend. We dated last year in fact, I loved him so much that I gave myself to him. Man, when you think life could not get anymore screwed up. I have not talked to him since last year when he broke my heart and left me hanging. It was the day before Valentines day too. I just keep thinking about how when I was with how sweet he was and I am still in surprise that he could almost kill people. I am so glad my brother and his girlfriend were not there because they could have gotten stabbed. My brother threaten Jeremy and toild him to stay away from me. Oh, lord this freaked me out.
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Friday, July 03, 2009
It can not be any but LOVE
I am in-love with him, I mean these feelings are not silly little I will forget about you in a week or two feelings. These are I will always deeply care for you feelings. I would do ANYTHING for you kind of feelings. >.< Dude, this is so not cool. I am not suppose to like this kid he like grew up with me I AM friends with his MOM?!?!?!?! Dude this is so lame I am hopelessly in-love with this kid. Oh, and here is the kicker like a 2nd grader every time I am with him I be mean to him. You know that 2nd grade shit where if you make a boy miserable it means you like them. Yeah well I LOVE HIM so you could only imagine how much I am mean to him......GAY
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Wednesday, July 01, 2009
Manic depression is what I think I have, because I do not want to do anything. I go out with my friends and such but I don't really have fun. Rarely, I can not remember when the last time was when I actually laughed and enjoyed myself truly.
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Thursday, June 25, 2009
Since July 1st of last year I have changed dramatically, I have gained weight, became depressed. The only thing that changed that was good is after that day I decided to actually buckled down at school so I could actually graduate for my grandma and myself. Before my grandma passed away I had just dropped 65 pounds. Now that's something, but when she passed away I stopped caring and I gained it all back and than some. I was in a size 18 now I am in a size 20 to a 22. That is terrible, I am disgusted with myself. I hate looking at myself in the mirror and I hate it when I eat. I want to loose weight, but I think I let it get to bad. It's so hard to just go on with your life when some one you cared about so much is no longer with you. My grandma was a huge part of my life, she was the glue that kept my family together, She was the only one who could ever calm down my mom when she got in a fight with me or Dave. I miss her so much. I can believe I graduated with out her and doing all these things with out her. Now I just do not have a family member to lean on like I did with my grandma. My mom is way to indifferent and my Uncle just likes to hear himself talk and no one else. My CRAZY insane is just as bad as Dave. My brother Joey never has free time. I need someone to just talk to about all this family shit and all this other crap.
To top it off I really don't think I have any true friends anymore except maybe Cody. But sometimes I am not even sure about I think he just talks to because he feels obligated too.I don't Jessica has not talked to me until like June 6th. I am so pissed about that I have no idea why she is being so freaking mean.
My graduation party is this Saturday and I am kind of worried about it. I am not sure how many people are even going to show up and my mom is spazing out over a whole lot of nothing-ness. I am just so tired and fade up.
-L8er
Posted at 11:43 pm by
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Wednesday, June 24, 2009
You can call me crazy but, I prefer Tina
"IHDVIOSVSDIOVC"
I am
SO MAD
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Sunday, June 21, 2009
Okay, Okay I realize this is my third one tonight...
I should not be upset, right? I mean I have no right to be upset. "Tina pull it together MAN!!" LOL. I am so freaking nuts man, it's no wonder I am not dating anyone. Whatever happened to; Oh, I like being single and guys are touts. Psssh, I met a guy who is not a tout is what happened. Mm, alright well...I am over it. I am over it I can accept the fact he does not like and I am NOT his type. I can live with that. We can choose who we love. But, dude one, ONE day I will be so gorgeous and not fat. I will be on top of the world. Man I can not wait till I am not fat [: I can not wait till I get a good job and go to college and do something with my life. [:
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These are very good questions that I need answered.
1.) Why do people ask people to repeat them selves even though they know they said?
2.) Who came up with the word tree?
3.) Who discovered penguins?
4.) Why do girls always have their mouth open when applying mascara?
5.) Why are X's hugs and O's kisses? I mean really were is the logic it that?
6.) Who would want to make a map for a living, oh my gosh so many lines so many places?
7.) Why do people ask if they missed something when it is clear as hell they didn't?
8.) Why do men always piss off women?
9.) Why did Elvis O.D. in a bathroom?? (of all places to die)
I'll come up with more later....
Posted at 12:12 am by
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