Well since the time I wrote in this blog, I have dated Jeremy, I have lost my virginity with Jeremy, I got called out by April, I am dateless for prom, I went to homecoming, and so much more.

     Your probably like whoa, tell me about the Jeremy thing, what all did I do. Well...ha. I had sex with him I do regret it cause indeed I do love him. I just wish he felt the same, and I would have realized he didn't before we had sex. Every one was like Tina he just wants to get in your pants. I said nooo, he does not he loves me he told me so. Ha. What a crock that was if he did love me he wouldn't be treating me like he is now. I wanted to be with him forever. I loved him so much, why you ask. Because I was myself with him and he loved me just the same. He wrote me notes saying I was beauitful he looked in my eyes and told me he loved me. He made me feel so safe, I could not stop smiling the day he met my mom. I was so happy. I never smiled so much in one day. He touch was gentle and his kisses were passionate. Me and him just seem to make sense together. I would have did anything for him. 

      He can not possbliy know this right? Or he would still be with me right? Or he just does not love me as much as he does April which is understandable, they had a 4 year relationship. I just am really hurt I feel like all  the air has left my body and that I will never get back on track again. Write more I gtg.